I feel many things right now. To name a few, grateful, proud, scared, helpless, loved and also very fortunate. I was caught up in living the good life, spending endless amount of time with my family. The world turned upside down over a month ago and like most, it definitely wasn’t something I was prepared for. I literally had to look up what the word pandemic meant.. that’s embarrassing but true.
1 year ago, I left my job in advertising to be a stay at home Mom. I started to learn photography, envious of my husband’s passion for doing something that he loved – wrestling. I am beyond grateful that I was ever even able to be a SAHM in this expensive world that we live in. Getting home at 6:30 wasn’t cutting it for me anymore, I wanted to be home with my daughter and see my husband when he was home.
On Wednesday April 15th, Brian was released from his WWE contract. There was notice that morning that layoffs would begin and our anxiety kicked into full gear. Not just for ourselves, but friends and loved ones that this could potentially happen to. Brian just needed to know if it was happening to him or not and I was praying the phone didn’t ring. Well, the phone rang and I broke down. You can’t really break down for long when your almost 3 year old is running around chasing bubbles, but I cried. There is so much uncertainty in the world, it’s terrifying. One week prior, they had wanted him to fly to Orlando to film for RAW and the next week they are getting rid of people. I went from being scared of my husband coming home from work with the Coronavirus to days later him getting fired.
One thing I can say, I’m so proud of how he held it together. The first time this happen it was almost a matter of when, this time it was just out of nowhere given the current state of the world. Since he can’t wrestle anywhere right now, he did exactly what he needed to do to help himself cleanse of the past 4 years which was basically get rid of everything he was holding onto. He also guided other wrestlers that have never been through this before of what they needed to do to set themselves up for success. Basically anything would make me cry the past few days, from him making me proud to me being sad, to even watching him still be in full Dad mode on a day that could have been a very dark one. He handles everything with grace which just reassures me that we will be OK. I feel so lucky to be his wife.
Why do I feel helpless? For starters, I am 30 weeks pregnant. It’s not the most satisfying feeling when your husband loses his job and you don’t have one for you both to fall back on. I always said the past year, if I needed to get back into work I could and would get back into my field(thinking like 4-5 years if his contract didn’t renew), not expecting him to lose his job when I’m 2 months away from having our child let alone during a pandemic. Though I don’t regret my time at home, I do feel guilt and anxiety about the decision I made last year with a new baby on the way but this is something I just have to deal with right now.
Writing this part could make me cry again. But I feel very loved throughout this whole situation. We have received so many well wishes from fans that were so sad to see this happen to our family, but also so many encouraging messages of how much people love Brian and our family and how talented he is and that they know he will land on his feet. I’ve felt the same love from so many of my family members as well as close friends. Most importantly, my fellow wrestler wives who are going through this as well. It makes it easier to have people who can relate to you on a personal level for a minute during a shitty time. It feels like we’re all in the same boat together, all rooting for one another and it almost feels like therapy talking to each other.
I don’t want to sound ungrateful that my family is in good health, because that is what I have prayed and wished for most every day in general, but especially the last month. We’re very fortunate that the virus has not affected our health and my thoughts and prayers are with anyone that has been affected by this virus directly. At this point, anyone I speak to knows someone who has had the virus which is terrifying. I pray for this to end soon and for us to all get back on our feet. May none of us take for granted again something as simple as grabbing a coffee with a friend or dropping our children off at school. May we all be able to gather at a restaurant again or more importantly a family dinner – and more often.
I hope everyone is staying safe at home.
13 thoughts on “How the Coronavirus has impacted my family.”
This is beautiful to read, as a huge wrestling fan and wrestling action figure fan I know of Brian’s work. I truly wish you the best and hope that things work out. I never ever want to see or hear anyone losing their job, thank you Brian for going out and entertaining us fans and making those who are sitting at home forget everything that is going on right now. Please be safe and I hope things work out
I was absolutely heartbroken when I saw this happen to you and all of the wonderful wrestlers that were released. I wish this didn’t happen to you 10 weeks before you go into labor! Will be praying for you!! Also, it is a blessing for you to have Brian home now and have him help you around the house and with your daughter while you “rest” and prepare throughout the next weeks before baby #2 comes. I’ve been memorizing the verse Romans 15:13 to help me get through this difficult time. Many blessings to you and your family. 🙂
Much love to you and your family! We love Brian! Can’t wait to follow him on his next journey. Thank you for sharing.
There are still many promotions looking for great talrnt He should have no problem .getting signed by a promotion who will treat him well, and this may be an opportunity to move on up to a real professional wrestling promotion, instead of being under Vince’s thimb. AEW or NJPW are the top two places to go.
Thank You for sharing your story, I wanted to say I cannot wait to see what 2020 has in store for you and your family once we get back on track.
I had the opportunity to meet Brian in my state of Minnesota before a show once. He could’ve kept walking but he didn’t and because he didn’t I was able to have a short but memorable conversation with him about his Mets. I knew he loved Baseball like I do and those two or three minutes I will always remember.
I know with him being a professional wrestler he is away from home and I know he’s missed some moments by not being able to be at home but I want to say Thank You because he made a moment for me when he couldn’t be home with his family and it’s something I won’t take for granted and will never forget.
I wish you and your family all the best.
Thank you! Waiting for the better part of 2020 to star to everyone!! That’s a very sweet memory!
Honestly be grateful he doesn’t have to go to the MITB filming in Stamford CT. As of right now as of today it is ground zero for our state with COVID cases (1748 cases) for that city alone.
We live in NY which is why he shouldn’t be traveling anywhere.